24 Mar The Power of Knowing Whose You Are
She looked at me with teary eyes as she narrated what had happened the previous night.” I looked outside of the window, it was all dark and I could only see scattered stars in the sky. My face was swollen I dreaded to look in the mirror again. My husband who is supposed to be my hero but in reality was a monster to me had left for the lounge. I did not bother to worry myself about what he was doing.
Questions ran through my mind: What happened to the love we used to share? Where did we lose our connection? How did we get to this point, where my husband uses violence to force submission out of me? I was afraid. Afraid to face the future. Afraid to lose myself. Afraid to lose my identity. Which Identity? I used to know who I was but now with all the name calling I have gone through in this marriage and emotional abuse I don’t know what to believe. My husband is a leader at church, and no one will believe what he does behind closed doors. No one will believe how angry he is when he is at home.” She gazed at the night sky as if to search for answers.
March is a month when women celebrate international women’s month. As women are celebrated for their achievements and impact in the society, some women are still in bondage. Wondering who they are and how they can find themselves. Physical and emotional abuse happens to both the guilty and the innocent. I recall listening to a woman of God, a preacher of the word who had finally left her marriage of many years because she could not take the emotional abuse any longer. She said” I tolerated a lot of things because I was afraid of what society would say but I could not breathe. I could not stay for the children any longer.” I state in my book ‘The King’s dream for His daughter!’ “Being a woman is a beautiful thing. When you know who you are and what God thinks of you, you graduate from being a victim of people and circumstances. Beauty comes from within, and that beauty is what makes women attractive.”
It is easy to be trapped in one’s fears and self -pity if you have been exposed to abuse but if you know whose daughter you are, you reject words that do not agree with what your father in heaven says you are despite who they are coming from.
For you formed my inward parts: You covered me in my mother’s womb. I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Marvelous are Your works and that my soul knows very well. My frame was not hidden from You. When I was made in the secret, and skillfully wrought in the lowest parts of the earth. Your eyes saw my substance being yet unformed. And in Your book, they were written. The days fashioned for me, when as yet there were none of them. How precious Your thoughts are to me Oh God!” – Psalm 139: 13-17
Who do you say you are? Who does God say you are? Knowing it is not enough, you need to believe it and live it.
Tafadzwa Mazibuko is an inspirational author, speaker, contributing writer. She is a founder of Tafadzwa Mazibuko and associates. She has written three books ‘The dream that was worth fighting for!, The Dream!, and The King’s dream for His daughter! and a Dreamer’s Daily Planner. Dreamer’s Daily planner is a personal development tool published annually. Tafadzwa has featured on Television, One Gospel channel on shows: Your playlist with Carly Fields, Revelations, Soul Sessions, Christmas Sessions, Feed your soul. She has featured on radio programs: SA FM with Kanye Magubane, Rainbow FM with Pastor George, Praise 102.5 and Pheli FM with Solly. She has also been featured in the move, Hallelujah and Growth women’s business networks magazines. She is a contributing writer of the magazine Growth Women’s business network. She has been awarded a certificate of excellence by CWENA and long list best non- fiction by SABA book awards 2020.